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Since the first day I stepped into my university, which has already been a month now. I've been struggling with myself so hard.
My school was really small, crowd, traditional, and conventional. I'm currently in a language department right now, which is quite fun but a bit monotonous. We had bunch of self-introduction during the first month, by talking about ourselves, I can tell that classmates of mine including me are really, really pathetic. All we care about is what happening on Instagram and Facebook, the favorite interests we can tell are only music and movies. However, nobody really knew why we were there.
Yesterday I drove the wrong path when I exit the freeway, passing by was the best university in Taiwan which was my ideal school to get in. Nonetheless, I did poor in the entrance exam so I end up in another school near my house. The moment passing by NTU, I felt like such a loser. My heart was beating abnormally fast, not because of the anxiety of driving the wrong way but the regretting feeling emerged deep inside my mind.
"Is this the life I want? "
I've been asking myself for a million times ever since I discovered the life in my college was enclosed and normal. Unlike my friend she joined clubs and discussion groups...etc. And most people told me they had amazing freshman life in college. That really made me wonder what is going on with mine? As my friend scared me with creepy pictures last night got me stayed up for a long while. One more time, asking myself,
"Are there any other options for me? "
I googled up some information, and repeatedly think about what do I want or who do I wanna become in the future. I suddenly realized I'm wasting my time in the language department, because this has nothing to do with my dreams.
So I opened up a new blog, again. Here now to start recording 2018 autumn by words and blank. Telling myself, I should challenge the transfer exam secretly on my own.
My school was really small, crowd, traditional, and conventional. I'm currently in a language department right now, which is quite fun but a bit monotonous. We had bunch of self-introduction during the first month, by talking about ourselves, I can tell that classmates of mine including me are really, really pathetic. All we care about is what happening on Instagram and Facebook, the favorite interests we can tell are only music and movies. However, nobody really knew why we were there.
Yesterday I drove the wrong path when I exit the freeway, passing by was the best university in Taiwan which was my ideal school to get in. Nonetheless, I did poor in the entrance exam so I end up in another school near my house. The moment passing by NTU, I felt like such a loser. My heart was beating abnormally fast, not because of the anxiety of driving the wrong way but the regretting feeling emerged deep inside my mind.
"Is this the life I want? "
I've been asking myself for a million times ever since I discovered the life in my college was enclosed and normal. Unlike my friend she joined clubs and discussion groups...etc. And most people told me they had amazing freshman life in college. That really made me wonder what is going on with mine? As my friend scared me with creepy pictures last night got me stayed up for a long while. One more time, asking myself,
"Are there any other options for me? "
I googled up some information, and repeatedly think about what do I want or who do I wanna become in the future. I suddenly realized I'm wasting my time in the language department, because this has nothing to do with my dreams.
So I opened up a new blog, again. Here now to start recording 2018 autumn by words and blank. Telling myself, I should challenge the transfer exam secretly on my own.
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